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Sunday, May 21, 2006

no mood to do assignment at all....im some kind of thinking abt the last nite movie they shown in vasantham central(Ponniyanin Selvan).....tat guy n me have something in common..
he wanted to save money for his operation an dhe worked so hard for it and i wanted to achieve my target that is to save money for education..when i saw him like 2 jobs in one day...it reminded me of myself...

For the past 1.5 years i worked so many jobs like in warehouses,flyers,foodstalls,wda,securtiy gurad occupying myself for 7 days in a row....cuz no one wanted to hire me permanently as i was studing but it was tiring very tiring....some frinds will tease me of the job i did and its hurted me too but why should i care? As long im happy doing that job n pay Schl fees n support my family is enough...the goal of aciveing my traget is always comes in mind..But no one should face like what i faced,i be like very stingy ,buying a cloth also will think 10 times b4 purchasing it and nvr botherd to have any handphone line...each place i worked i met all kind of gd n bad ppl,its i guess a gd lesson for me...now almost tere...no my goals arent reached yet,i have decided to do my degree,but luckily i have permanent job now but not enouh,i have to start to work 7 days in a week and that means another part time job, another bloody battel to cross now, hopefully with god's help as well as the nvr give up attidute must be in tere..

But in between those 1.5 years of struggling i will sneak into msn to chat with frinds,like kamilah sis,fathima,shafiyah sis and of course rose as well.. it was realy wonderful that time..esp u,yes u should know im refreing to u....then when have time i will mix with the kids in the park or go out with amjad...but stress n tiredness hav changed me too,at times i be very rude to family memebers and frinds....

hey in that movie the guy's face was made to look uglier and ppl he knowns mixes with really really nice to him...he loves gerl n when the gerl scared n talkd saractilly abt hims without realsing that it is him whos works in the same place as her, she felt paisey and also guiltyness in her self n stared to show sympathy on him...but actually it's kind of pityness isnt it.
Same to me ,ppl showing the pityness on me too, u guys knows im shrt n yet u all saying im cute n gd looking and stuff like this to make myself happier.Well thanks alot but the truth is i know myself.One person who was really really straight forwrd have to be is kamilah sis...thats y i at times write things abt u...how i wish u be real sis to me...u really made me understand alot of things...thanks alot....and thse still who motivates me also thanks alot..

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2:52 PM

Comments:

u know bro i'm really proud of u. Yes, u should be the type who will work anywhere. Shafik oso like u. work as kitchen cleaner and security guard during his sching times. Must have the mentality to work anywhere.

Unlike me, i'll think a million times, even to do a factory job. haha~

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Kamilah : 4:13 PM

You know I didnt quite like the movie, He was not a typical man...he was after all an actor..the fact that of his characther didnt sink in to me, infact I tot..there are people worst of than he is..and he is after all chasing a materialistic dreamz..He was forced to change upon circumstance..but us..we should be proud of becos we are living harsh reality of lIFE...WE ARE FACING REALITY.yes reality does bite..but the ultimate is when we realise the depth of friendship along the way........!

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Anonymous : 4:24 PM